This is 30

Santa Monica, CA

Well, it’s official, I’m a 30 year old lady! And while I wasn't exuberant about the number at first, I have come around to embracing it. Do I feel like I'm exactly where I want to be in my life? No way! But I certainly feel like I am getting there. The truth is, I don't think I will ever feel like I am there. Life is a constant journey and I will never stop wanting more out of it. 

My twenties were carefree and full of BIG dreams. I danced, I traveled, I slept a lot more than I do now. I had very little money and also a lot fewer concerns. But it wasn't all  fun and games...I dealt with major heartbreak, a shift in my career, I lived on a friends sofa for a summer and my dearest friend, my Mum, was diagnosed with cancer. 

I guess my point is this: I used to look ahead with all these lofty goals and dreams for myself (and the people in my life) and now I've learned to let go a bit. There are simply too many things that are out of our hands. The only thing we can control is the kind of person we want to be while we are here. To be a kinder, better, braver, smarter person, that is all I can hope for my future.

So I guess, overall, while I do feel older, I certainly also feel luckier each year. It's such a privilege to be able to spend my ups and downs surrounded by a fantastic group of people that I love and cherish so dearly. 

Turtleneck: c/o SHEIN

Skirt: Forever 21 (Sold out but similar here)

Sneakers: Steve Madden